Oh, gosh! 

I want to cry right now.

I don't know what I'm currently feeling. The emotions are so mixed up inside. I want to shout, punch someone (or something to avoid any ruckus), throw a fit (just like a damn kid), destroy something, make a mess out of my room, break some glass, and out of all the option there is, I'd probably just cry a bucket in my room with no one noticing and falling asleep right then. And I was so positive with my post last time. Just what the heck happened to me, I wonder.

Can I cuss? Like shout some foul words and be a shit cause whatever it is that's in my mind, it's shitting me good time. I am in a fucked up.....whatever this state I am going through right now.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!

I feel so disappointed. The world is starting to get a gloom and I don't fucking know how to get out of this mood of mine. I wanted to improve myself. You know, change is good and damn right just makes you, and even around you, feel nice as fuck. I wanted to slowly change my habit of suppressing every bit of anxiety, anger, and sadness inside of me cause I really don't like getting in a nasty situation. I get that we need to act tough and be tough in front of the people so that no one can belittle you.



Yeah, sure~



I freaking got that! Seriously, there are times that happens for a reason and there's just no need to fucking do it in a hurry. I believe in the right time things, and I just wanna chill if I'm in a fucking slump.



Can't I live my life without being bothered? With my decisions?



I don't get life anymore. Time will be our enemy, I know! But I need  to take a breath.  Literally. I need to collect myself, cause to be honest, I fucking don't know where my life is going! No one will ever understand my complains, my screams (if you fucking get what I mean).




Okay, I need to stop cussing. I need to breath, laugh and rest up. Being this stressed........not gonna make me happier in just a bit.

that feeling of just snapping out of the ordinary